I watched a little girl at the pool today with a miniature bag of m and m's. She devoured them as if the bottom of the bag had a treasure chest in it. Each one eaten faster than the color could be decided. Once she was done she joyfully hopped up and handed the bag to her grandmother. No disappointment or frown. Simply, pure enjoyment.
I wonder what my life would be like if I had devoured each day like this little girl. Would everything have been rosy? With a sweet smell that lingered?
Sadly, the last few months have been a mountainous climb full of disappointment, tears, and too many changes to list. Almost like a seed packet, neatly packed tight. Someone emptied us into the soil and out of what we new only as home.
Our manicured home has become a new "different". A full time job, a divorce, and an uncertain future have caused me to humble myself and find guidance and friendship where I never knew it existed.
You can find me in the daisies at our local garden center. Capturing pictures of the latest farm fresh arrivals. Each person I work with more deserving than the last. A new family to hold my hand, show me my backbone and a solid future with which to plan on.
During the early months we sat wistfully and cried together and this day never seemed possible but just like Spring arrives every year, we too have blossomed into a family of four. Tighter than a bud in bloom.
Our once familiar home became a shell until we broke open the door one day lately and embraced the future we (me and the three kids) will share.
New spaces for "my" mending within steps of the door I swing through each night.
Old faces revisited and newly placed.
Friends who have been dear reminding me that strength is from within.
Thank you for all your kind words and sweet notes, sometimes weekly.
I have learned some very important things in the past few months.
1. Nursing wasn't for me.
2. Trust can always be broken.
3. Friends are priceless.
4. Children are the best gift ever.
5. Follow your heart...mine lead me back to the garden.
DEVOUR each day like there is treasure at the bottom.
I will keep you updated as to how my room works out. Thank you for all your kind words and sweet notes, sometimes weekly they have been my treasure.
With my new work schedule post might only be monthly but I assure you it feels good to be where I am right now...in the daisies.