Friday, January 11, 2013

Time for a new book.


I have been toying with the idea that it is time to turn the page in my own book so to speak. Wondering if it was out of fear or excited about what it might be. A waning creative drive helped make the decision. No, last year was not a "great" year for me but it was my year and I have to own it. No amount of talking or tears will help me see something I need to do any clearer. 
The definition of me is first and foremost a mom.  I have three wonderful children that don't need any more hand holding. As they have grown older my definition hasn't changed, I remain a mom. While I have spent time out volunteering and sewing, a little bit of side work as a preschool teacher and a few other odd jobs, I haven't committed myself to anything because of the children. In someways I have lost the definition of myself. The girl that graduated college in 3 years..because she was driven and more importantly motivated somehow morphed into someone I don't recognize. 
All of this leads to a great deal of change and anxiety. Of course this economy is not conducive to taking my time and or my choice of career paths. Going back to school full time to pursue something I might like seems duly daunting. And so here I am realizing...its not only time to turn the page but probably time for a new book. My husband supporting me as I take each new step. My children needing a new role model for what their future may be. 
All of this being said, I wanted to take time to express my absolute gratitude to all of you who have supported me over the past two years. Your gentle words and packages in the mail have provided such sweet memories and kindness. I am truly thankful. 
On Monday, I open up the new book that has been placed before me and start training to become a medical assistant. Three full months of classroom work and study. Something I haven't done in years. To be fair, I am more than a little afraid but I am excited to be getting out of the old and learning to embrace the new. 
I know it is always a little bit sad when I finish a book, fear of missing time spent with the characters, but it is just as exciting to find another book and begin a new journey.
Thank you for this journey.


61 comments:

Kim K. said...

I'm so proud of you. An amazing journey awaits. You will continue to be "super-mom", even in the midst of other obligations. I continue to be one of your biggest cheerleaders and am only an email or phone call away.

Lots of love and hugs being sent your way, dear Renee!

birdie blue said...

i know, miss renee, that you'll be a big success at whatever you do. looking forward, not back, is the only way to go, as i think you realize.

i'll be thinking of you and hoping that this year promises only good things for you and your beautiful family.

xo
molly

donna said...

I wish you all the success in the world. You will always be a GREAT mom and special friend.
Hugs
donna

Tammy's in Love said...

And there you were pondering BIG thoughts...I thought you were like me, stuck in the Blogger fail to upload new pix mode! I'm sure you will succeed in WHATEVER you put your mind to, Renee. It's fun to go to school when you have a goal in mind and this is a great goal! Enjoy it.

GardenofDaisies said...

What an adventure you are embarking on! I will miss your posts, but at the same time I know that you are making a great choice for you, and being a wonderful role model for your children. Wishing you all the best as you head back to school and launch a new career.

Karen Mary Butterfly said...

I appreciate your openness and honesty. I can completely understand how you feel. I once cried in a parking lot of a Bath and Body Works, because after staying home with the my kids for 7 years the girl there (at least half my age) asked me if was interested in part time work for the holidays, even just Saturday or Sunday if you have kids. I went back to the car and cried and thought, I am hire-able? Women are amazing with all the roles we take on and always putting ourselves last. Bravo to you! You will do just fine and have a different appreciation for work. I am subbing now full time. It's not what I planned to ever do after college, but it is rewarding and the paychecks are an extra perk! Good luck!
Karen

Kathy said...

Renee, this is a familiar fork in the road for many women. Bravo to you for leaning into the changes ahead. You have such a caring and nurturing nature that I know you will be a sucess in the medical field. I will be cheering you on and hope you will give us an update from time to time.
XO!
Kathy

craftyles said...

Congratulations Renee. I'm sure you will be a success at whatever you choose to do. We'll be thinking of you. Good Luck!

Sandy said...

Renee,
You go girl!!!! I wish you full success and happiness in whatever you endeavor to do! It has been a honor meeting you and call you friend, which I will continue to do ! I am also trying to change some major things this year....so take care and we are here if you ever need us!
Hugs, Sandy

Sarah said...

While you may find yourself with much less time for creating, I, for one, am hoping you will continue to share your voice here. Or if not *here* maybe a new *here*? Life changes us all and I am 100% in support of blogs who change to roll with it. ;-) I know you are going to be a superstar, you go mama!

chris mckinley said...

Good for you!! I'm sure you will be an amazing medical assistant!!

Chris

Debby said...

Oh Renee your path sounds a bit like mine, maybe in reverse. I stayed home with my children. I had been a medical assistant when I got married. I wanted to be a pre-school teacher and went back to college when my kids were in high school. I also adopted a five year old during this time. I never thought I could do college at my age then but I did and was so proud of myself. It took a little time to adjust but now I look back and think, how did I do that with 4 children. You will do great. I hope you still have time to blog a little. Good luck.

vintage grey said...

Sweet Renee I am going to miss you so! I am so excited for you and your new venture, and I know that God is going to bless you in this journey. You have been such an inspiration and true friend. Wishing you all the best and I will be keeping you in my prayers. I would love to keep in touch! Love you lots, xo Heather

vivian said...

oh Renee.. I will truly miss you. but I totally get it. sometimes we just know when its time to take a new path in life. It sounds like its time for you. I'm so glad that the year ended on the positive side for you. I know it was a difficult year. I hope your new endeavor brings you a great deal of self satisfaction and a good job in the end!
Good luck and stop in and peek at us every now and then!!
((((HUGS))))
vivian

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

I'm really happy for you! It's always a good idea to check and see if we are going in the direction we need to go in...or want to go in. You'll do great! Sweet hugs!

Patti said...

Hi Renee, 16 years ago - I had a life changing event happen in my life and marriage. While it seemed impossible, what happened is that I returned to college. The kids survived - and I thrived. I became happier and stronger, a bit more assertive, and more confident. I am a teacher because I "had" to step out and take care of "me". I love teaching. Life is full of seasons, I think. This season is for "you". May it bear much sweet fruit. I have sooooo loved meeting you and visiting you. You are a remarkable woman. Wherever you go, and whatever you do, you will bless others. I just know that. Hugs, Patti

Simply Shelley said...

God go with you and bless you....Congratulations on your new book :) Blessings

Barbara said...

I know you'll be great at whatever you do, and you have a huge support network/cheering squad going with you to every class. I'll be thinking of you often, missing you a lot ... and checking in, every once in a while, if you don't mind!

laurie -magpie ethel said...

Life is full of different paths with hills and valleys and sometimes mountains. Which ever way you decide to travel...you will be successful and find joy and excitement in a new path. You will always be a mom, have that magic needle and have the support of many, many friends. xo and a glittery hug...always here for you.

A Little Creation said...

Good Luck and Congratulations for being brave enough to take that first step on a new road.
Chris =]

busymartha said...

How Brave you are! Once you have a career of your own your self esteem will explode! Also, getting a pay cheque doesn't hurt, think of all the craft materials you can buy! Your children will soon be going their own way, you don't want to be left behind! You will ace this, love Marilyn.

Liz said...

Best wishes for your future plans and well done for taking that step.
Liz @ Shortbread & Ginger

~Damita's Pretty Wrap~ said...

Sweet Renee, I wish you the very best and many wonderful new things in your future! You have been such a lovely person, getting to know you and such an unbelievable inspiration!! I hope you come to visit us once in a while, I would love to keep in touch still, wishing you the best of luck with everything you do! Love, Holly

Holly- Cutie Pie Cottage said...

I thought of you often yesterday and wanted to e mail you to make sure you were okay! The only problem was- I always thought about it while I was AWAY from the computer!

I'm sure you'll learn all sorts of things as you open this new book! ♥

Susan said...

Turn the page my cherished Internet friend. Your next chapter will lead you to a whole new life! You are going to love it!!

Diane Mars said...

Renee, I must say life is always full of ups and downs.. and I cannot tell you how many changes have popped up in my lifetime so far. I always think change is for the good. Who knows just where this path will lead. Maybe you should just stay a bit involved in the blogging world, I always say moderation is a challenge for us all.
So please re-think leaving us altogether. Hugs, Diane

Melissa said...

May God bless you on your new Journey!

Ive had your blog button on my blog for about a year, and think of you often. =)

Nancy said...

It is a hard thing to do..when we have to admit that our children can now move ahead on their own..You have given so much to everyone else including us..your followers..Now it is Renee's turn..Even though you will be missed..you have to do what is right for you..Thank you for all you have given to us..Now go out there and SHINE like the great lady that you are!! Hugs, Nancy

Erica of Golden Egg Vintage said...

I'm so happy to hear that you've chosen something that you think will be a good fit for you. This could be a fantastic journey, and just what you have been needing!
Can't wait to hear how it's coming along. I'm sure you'll be great!
Erica :)

ImagiMeri said...

Bravo girlfriend, God Bless and God speed..........go find yourself!

Love ya'
Meri

❁Velma ~Down Our Country Road❁ said...

I spent a good number of years concentrating on being mom to my three children...it was and still is my life even though they are all with families of their own.
Being able to take time to do something for yourself can be rather daunting but I know your husband and family are proud of your efforts and will be cheering you on!
I, too, started a new book when I decided to embark on an at-home career but it was short lived when unexpected health issues got in the way. I pray that your new book brings you great joy as the pages and chapters unfold before you. Blessings!

Sewn With Grace said...

I am so excited for you! I don't think I could be as brave and you are such a source of inspiration for me! We will miss you. I hope you let us know how it's going. I will be praying for you as you begin this new journey!

Lily Anne said...

Renee,For the past 2 years you have graciously invited me into your home and shared all your lovelies. I have been touched in so many ways. I've smiled, laughed and cried because of the moments in my childhood were awakened. I so admire you! Thank you.
I am happy for you being able to recognize you are ready to start a new book. I know you have chosen a great read! I hope that you will be able to read a chapter to us once in awhile. God bless you and your family. I know the Medical World is getting an Angel! xoxo

Creative Breathing said...

Renee, ALL mothers go through this stage you are now entering. Rediscovering yourself will change your life. I found the purpose for my life at your very age and began a career my entire life had led me to fulfill. That you are entering the medical field is not a surprise at all. Your caring attitude all your years of mothering and absorbing so much from your husband will make you feel comfortable and successful in your endeavor. Shine Renee, Shine! E

Corey Moortgat said...

Congratulations, Renee! How exciting for you- I know it's scary, too, but exciting just the same. Good luck with this journey- I know you'll be so proud of yourself for it!

Marci said...

Renee,
Good luck in this new chapter of your "book of life". From the caring nature you show on this blog I know you will make a great medical assistant! I work in a hospital (right down the street from you) so if you need anything at all or have questions, whatever, shoot me an email!
mcook1015@gmail.com

LBP said...

Good luck to you with the new chapter in your book! The Book of Renee! God bless you on your journey..

Blessings

Linda

Amy, a redeemed sheep said...

May God richly bless you in this new chapter of your life!

Gloria McAllister said...


Seems like all my favorites are giving up their blogs....

Best wishes!

Gloria in Virginia

Heidi said...

I feel like we could really be friends! I've loved your blog and your spirit, and getting to know you through them both. Thank you for inspiring me! Best of luck to you, and God bless.

A Vintage Chic said...

You will be amazing, Renee...each and every step of the way. Your children will be so very grateful for your strong and wonderful example.

Cheering you on, dear friend!

Julie

Into Vintage said...

Congrats for taking this exciting, new step! You know we are all here cheering you on and wishing you nothing but the very best. And what an awesome role model you are, especially for your daughter. xo

Karen said...

You are a wonderful example to your children! Congratulations on opening your next 'book'. It will be full of adventure!

Mimos da ClaralĂș! said...

only have one thing to say to you: God is in all of its goals in all their accomplishments and especially for all your challenges!
Everything gonna be alright and you will feel complete and fulfilled.
A big hug and God bless.
Luciana

retrorevival.biz said...

I'm very excited for you, Renee! Happy to hear you've got such as supportive family. Please remember that all of us out here in Blogville are rooting for you and we know you'll shine! I don't know if you'll continue blogging (of course I hope you will) but do hope that from time to time you'll check in and share your successes with us:) Wishing you only the best!

Clara {Clover and Violet} said...

What a great decision you are making! You have been such an encouragement to us! Take good care!

✿Carol✿ said...

How exciting! I have no doubt that you are going to be a great success, and I hope you will do a post whenever you can, just to keep us up to date on what's happening in your life. Wishing you and your family much happiness, Renee!

SueLovesCherries said...

God bless you and good luck! I'm looking for a part-time job myself, so I can understand a bit of what you're going through. Just remember to keep shining!

Ric Rac and Polka Dots said...

You can do it! You go girl!! I'm so proud of you. Life is always changing, and we have to keep trying new things as we travel through time. I'm very excited and I know you'll do wonderfully!
Hugs,
Julie

VintageBettys said...

Checking up on you Renee :) ...I hope everything is going well for you and your family:) We miss you here but we all understand....blogging does take up alot of time...wishing you a wonderful journey where-ever it takes you :)

Sandy said...

I miss you.....:(

VintageBettys said...

Renee...Have a wonderful Valentines Day :)

birdie blue said...

happy valentine's day to you, my friend. miss you and wondering how're you doing...

xo
molly

Nan said...

I know you're not posting but I just dropped in anyway to wish you the best Valentine's day.

Sweet Cottage Dreams said...

I completely understand your heart, Renee. I've been in the same boat and have had to make important decisions with careers. Having lost mine due to an injury, I had to "reinvent myself" (with my disability) and now love what God has put before me..and that is to be my own boss. He continues to bless. May your "book" be full of fun characters, lots of joy and excitement, and - moreso - successful. **cheers!!** to a beautiful soul!

hugs,
Becky

Holly- Cutie Pie Cottage said...

I miss you, Renee! I hope you are well! ♥

GardenofDaisies said...

Renee! So glad to hear from you today!!

Kerri said...

Renee,

I'm excited for you, and I know you will do amazing in your new journey! I wish you the best of luck. I hope you come back here and there to say hi, as we will all miss you.

Hugs,

Kerri :)

Chenille Cottage said...

Hi Renee,
I have missed your wonderful posts over the past few months. I just visited Damita's blog and I saw your comment. I wish you well as you begin your new job. You will always excel in everything you do, my sweet friend.
Blessings and my fond wishes,
Carolynn xoxo

Chenille Cottage said...

Hello, sweet Renee,
Just stopping by to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Hugs,
Carolynn xoxo

onlinephduk said...

Congratulations on closing an old book and starting with a new book in your life. There will always be demand for medical assistants and I can see how that would be a very rewarding career choice. Good luck on your brand new journey, I am sure that you will be successful.

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